Rediscovery

More than a decade later, this blog still exists!

I quickly looked through the posts to delete the most embarrassing ramblings of my youth.

What could survive the wisdom of another decade? Finding love, becoming a father, having lived life more fully; I expected to delete everything and start fresh.

But then I found this:

January 27, 2009

I am a lake, many fathoms deep. My shores lie beyond what eyes can see.

I am a man on a boat; its bow marking the extent of my world. I remember nothing of before, yet it is too cruel to imagine that this is all my existence has ever been. I yearn to escape my wooden boundaries.

I am a lake, many fathoms deep. I lie placid, my surface untouched.

I peer down into the waters on which I float. I see a man inside! No; it is my perturbed mind toying with me; it is but my own reflection. I try to reach out and touch his hand; the man shatters into ripples. Was he just an illusion or was he truly me; a shallow reflection on the surface of something more profound.

I am a lake, many fathoms deep. A ripple runs through me.

I had to read the post twice to accept that a younger me could have been its author.

It captures beautifully the essence of consciousness and the illusory self. Which is what brought me back to this blog; to write once again and capture my journey into mindfulness and the exploration of consciousness.

 

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